lalalallaaaaaaaaa

went for an interview at convergy's yesterday for OJT in their HR department...the person who interviewed me used the word "funnest" it made my stomach cringe. but then, they're a good enough buffer..and guess what, i thought when they said call centers were in demand, they just meant there were a lot of people looking for jobs to answer phones...when i was done with my interview, the receiving room was freakin' filled with people...

the situation's really going bad...

i'm not really in the mood to use my brain today so i'm typing on autopilot... on thursday, what am i going to do, what else, uhhh go up the mountains and hibernate for a while. four days to be exact. and then, go to the company who said they "hired" me but then suddenly my direct boss asks for an appearance before starting date. now, that's freaky. oh no! what if i get kicked out all of a sudden?!? Waahhh who cares, there's always convergy's to go to anyway, where its FUNNEST. Heavens!

I miss God. I mean I know he's around me but I miss him. Might have to call out louder tonight...

I'm enjoying what is left of my break...i am hoping I'll enjoy work...I can't wait for the choir thing next sunday...im still thinking if i should sing permanently for the choir or just withraw from service at the church for a while...

hahaha autopilot mode really not working.

i think my fingers have their own brain. hahaha o yeah, if you guys have time check out the jim link up there, and read the legend of E part one. tribute to superhero E-uuuuuuu-gene, formerly known as tuxedo mask.

im bored.

tell me a story..

hello

hi people who will be visiting this.. welcome to my re-furbished blog..uhh its not quite finished yet but then, there! ... heheh testing lang muna. post something else later.

Masarap ang pakiramdam ng may nakayakap sayo, pero pag ang nakabalot sa buong pagkatao mo, lungkot, dilim, at anu pang ganyang bagay, wala na. Tulala nalang.

Parang ako.

Blangko.

doughnuts in neverland

I said: "I wanted to bring doughnuts to neverland, but my feet know not how, so I ate the doughnuts instead..."

And Neil goes, "so, you're like what, Peter Pan's special baker?"

nuthin much..

this blog is due for a face lift. but before anything else, i found this piece slipped in my social psych book. must have been one of those thought-inducing lectures...oh, or was that boring lecture? hahaha whatever..

i've always wondered when it stopped,
when in left
and traces of it couldn't be found..

i've always wondered if i dreamed it,
that wonderful thing
i thought was there

i've always wondered if it is existent,
maybe i overimagined,
maybe it wasn't really there

i've always wondered if
i could find it still
That thing thatleft
That dream
That non-existent entity
That was never really there...

In short...my brain.hahahhaha

its over

It's finally over. The dreaded 200 point chemistry finals is over. Turned out to be a 60 item test with true/false and multiple choice questions. So, how come the world seems so dark, still? The sun is definitely shining outside. I just wish I could shine from the inside. Haven't felt that moment in such a long long time...

With a social psych paper and a philo oral exam to finish my week, I really have no idea on what to write. I just want to type type type. THere are so many freakin things to worry about -- where to go to practicum, what to do with my paper, what to do with everything basically. I mean, a little voice in me keeps saying, "this too shall pass" but still, it's a haunting feeling. Everything that is happening right now simply makes me feel so incompetent to face the world.

It's really just different to know that you have 'it' rather than really using 'it.'

But then, still, chemistry, IS OVER.

in my destructiveness, the test says I am for peace

Hahaha


Tickle's Original Inkblot Test
Reveal Your Subconscious Mind
Charissa, your subconscious mind is driven most by Peace

You are driven by a higher purpose than most people. You have a deeply-rooted desire to facilitate peacefulness in the world. Whether through subtle interactions with love ones, or through getting involved in social causes, it is important to you to influence the world.

You are driven by a desire to encourage others to think about the positive side of things instead of focusing on the negative. The reason your unconscious is consumed by this might stem from an innate fear of war and turmoil. Thus, to avoid that uncomfortable place for you, your unconscious seeks out the peace in your environment.

Usually, the thing that underlies this unconscious drive is a deep respect for humankind. You care about the future of the world, even beyond your own involvement in it. As a result, your personal integrity acts as a surrogate for your deeper drive toward peace and guides you in daily life towards decisions that are respectful toward yourself and others.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Peace, there is much more to who you are at your core.

the river into the sea

Bit by bit, it flows out of you, as a river flows out into the wide wide sea.

the water snakes around the river, sometimes bumping into a rock or two, winding, winding, another time finding itself having to climb up mountains and fall back down again, flowing, until it reaches the mouth of the salty sea. freedom. towards eternity.