Monday, February 21, 2005

Stolen from Princess Fiona

Have you ever??? copy and re-postput an 'X' next to what u have accomplished

( ) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight (with my brothers, who hasn't?)
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs (prescribed though)
(x) Had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour-- or water
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex..oh gosh :D
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stolen something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(x) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada...
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now

Sunday, February 20, 2005

I really thought I was going to die last night. No, I wasn't planning on killing myself...It's just that I was so exhausted and dizzy (yea, technically, my world was spinning!) that I felt I wouldn't even see the sun the next day. But, here I am. Refreshed this morning but exhausted again tonight. I don't even know what's wrong with me, I spent almost seven hours just to encode all the scores of our psych testing project's responses! Think my brain's running on safe mode.

Shutting down. Nyt y'all.

Friday, February 18, 2005

friday falphabet

apathy.
bitch.
crippled.
dark.
egoist.
fat.
grumpy.
haughty.
impossible.
jabez.
kind.
lemon.
mind.
naughty.
otter.
prancing.
queer.
rubbish.
stale.
temper.
umpire.
volatile.
wilted.
x-factor.
yawn.
zap.

A Letter of God to You

A Letter of God to You

I love you. (John 15:9) I have called you by name. (Isaiah 43:1) You are mine. Before I formed you, I knew you. And before you were born, I consecrated you. (Jeremiah 1:5) You did not choose me, I chose you. (John 15:16)
Because you are precious to me and honored, I love you. (Isaiah 43:4) I have loved you with an everlasting love, so I continue to show my constant love (Jeremiah 31:3). How can I abandon you? My love for you is too strong. (Hosea 11:8)
Can a woman forget her own baby and not love the child she bore? Yet even if she forget, I will never forget you -- I can never forget you. See, I have written your name in the palms of my hands. (Isaiah 49: 15-16) For I, the Lord your God, am holding you by the right hand. (Isaiah 41:13)
Do not be afraid, I have redeemed you. (Isaiah 43:1) I am with you. (Isaiah 43:5) And be sure of this, I am with you always 'til the end of the world. (Isaiah 41:14) When you pass through troubled waters, I will be with you. Your trouble will not overwhekm you. The hard trials that come will not hurt you. (Isaiah 43:2)
Do not worry. (Luke 12:9) Even the hairs of your head have been numbered, so there is no need to be afraid of anything. (Matthew 10:30) The mountains may depart, and the hills will be shaken, but my steadfast love for you will never end.
Come, I will lead you into solitude, and there, I will speak tenderly to your heart. I will be true and faithful. will show you constant love, and make you mine forever. I will deepen my promise, and you will really know me then as never before. (Hosea 1:14, 19-20) I am who I am. (Exodus 3:14) I am the Lord, your God. (Hosea 13:4)


The Faithful God (Hosea 11:12)
Keep me sedated.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

It's often a wonder how simple messages that MIGHT come your way can change your life. I set the rules, all I have to do now is wait.

I really must be going crazy. My closest friends would testify to that. It's really no big deal whatsoever, it's just that I think I spent so much time cooped up in this little corner of mine that crazy ideas get into my head. I swear, something's wrong with me. Terribly.

Here's the thing, I've been cooped up in my corner, I want to get out of it, yet,it's where I want to go back also. Crap. I need a change of scenery. I need a life. I've been trying to live one, believe me... But all is in vain. I think. Maybe.

I have totally no idea about coherence in what I am trying to accomplish (ha, just days before this, I had all my dreams before me... ready to be fulfilled) I have Chemistry subjects which I don't want to fail: 1) because I like the teacher 2) because it's actually pretty easy if you practised enough (which of course I don't do. Why? I've no idea) 3) I want a nice QPI. I have a testing subject and I'm beginning to be OC but then, my physical system is not really up to working. (sheesh, talk about coordination!) I have a social psych class which I'm not really excited to attend everytime but then, I have to because it's one of the classes that I'm actually "passing" I have a philo class which is interesting when we talk of "totalizing" the other but then, it gets boring when you have to rewrite notes...

Gosh, what direction am I headed to anyway?

I'm really hyper about something right now, but then, as I've said, the rules are set, and the answer will just come and shall be accepted as it is. (Oh Lord, hear my plea, shucks, but Thy will be done)

What is wrong with me !??!?!??!!!

Argh.

Friday, February 04, 2005

boredom, cramming, ty chika! haha

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Put in Italics the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't put in italics is false.


01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books.
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing. ???
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart --> whahhha
21. I've never broken someone's bones (as far as i can remember....)
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe and free of cost
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/nails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look a lot of the time
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to do cornrows
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with DeviantArt
58. I don't hate anyone
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I have never been to a big concert
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper/nappy before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 7 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before (alcohol, no drugs)
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Blogger..NOW
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or friend
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friend
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment -- if not for the psy report!
100. I need a cookie