reflections on bungee jumping, adventures, people, hong kong, and life in general

when i was about 12 - 13 years old and a survey comes out if I would like to try bungee jumping some day, without a doubt, I will say yes.

when i was 16 - 18 years old, I will have a 3 second thought to it, but I will still say yes.  I tended to go towards the extreme side of personality tests when it comes to these kinds of questions.  - i was willing to try a lot of things.

when i was 19 - 21 years old, it took me more than 5 minutes, and the answer now would be, maybe...

by the time i turned 23, it was just a thought, and the silent answer of my head would be no, i will never bungee jump.  never tried it, but i just seemed to have lost the 'interest' and the 'gut' to even try. 

a lot of people thought that my move to Hong Kong was such a bold move.  Moving out, living alone, working in a different country even.  But with that move, I think what i brought along was practicality and the sense of being grounded, and I forgot to pack along even a little dash of adventure.  Until now, when I go out, I somehow make sure I am home by midnight or a little later - haven't gotten wasted (which is a good thing), tried anything out ordinary. 

I lived a quiet, ordinary, 'boring' life.  I don't really regret it, but I am learning that the nature of living that i have chosen of work-home-work-sleep-work vicious cycle might just not be the ideal living to be done at this age of 25. 

Today, I have had 4 people telling me to start "going out" - whatever "going out" means.  I know somehow what they meant, why, even cab drivers here in Hong Kong have been slipping in a word or two about a girl like me should be dating (why in the world do they like conversing with passengers so much?) - ugh. and SIGH. altogether.

I do miss being in the middle of a good crowd.  But even after 2.5 years here, i've left my crowd - who in turn - has not left me, but has learned to live without me - and to live their own lives.. I don't know what to do at this point.

I do want these things.  I do want to be a little bit more 'active' and adventurous, and try a lot of things, but really, it is going to take more than a want to be able to get myself to change the routine I brought along with me and to get more players into the scene.

Oh heaven help me - i want to be able to believe I'd say yes to bungee jumping again. i'm too young to be old.

"sad"

i find it interesting that if you search google for "sad" photos, you get tons of frowning/depressed clowns. creepy!

Coming and Going

People come and go. But how come I feel I'm always around?