Now would be quite a good time to write something.
Yep, you guessed right...I'm not feeling so good. So, I have to try to write it down.
Been dreading all the workdays lately. Thinking of how many emails will welcome me when I open my computer in the morning isn't really the best way of putting yourself to sleep. You get weird un-understandable dreams in the middle of night, and you wake up too early or too late for work. You trudge to the bathroom, force yourself under the shower and catch a jeepney to work to find,....drumroll please....40-80 emails waiting for you.
WOW.
"It's just the perfect job for a computer person like you..." I've heard some friends say that, and myself too, mind you... Beside me, my seatmate types her emails away while I blog... ha. You see the difference.
So anyway, it is the perfect job...or was? I'm beginning to have 2nd thoughts. As normal as I could get, I'm someone who likes to solve other people's problems, which is exactly what my assignees have - problems and issues galore... but when it comes to mine, I think I'm kinda suck at it...
So, here comes an email, addressed to me, asking me to do something. Which on my ground, I believe I shouldn't do, so I explain why I can't do it. I am faced with a name dropping bitch who threatens to escalate me all over the world and take a part of my job responsibility. Funny. I should be happy with her who makes my job easier...so how come I feel a little heavy leaving all these people hanging?
Am I too attached to them? Am I too personal with my work? Or do I just loathe this person so much that I'd rather kill myself with so much work than give it to her? She's miles away, and I can hate her like this... I wonder if she's here? Tsk...it's either poor her or poor me..
So much for professionalism on my side. I'm sorry, ladies and gentlemen, this is my blog, so I'm free to bash as liked.
There, so much lighter...
Anyway, it's good to have a supportive management group and a peer group at work. But I can't kick the feeling of dread... Might be time to rethink some things...
Might be...