Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Beginnings and Endings

"Can't say I've ever been too fond of beginnings myself.
Messy little things. give me a good ending anytime.
You know where you are with an ending."

- The Kindly Ones, Book 9,
Neil Gaiman's Sandman-

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Laking National

My YM status goes, "I wait for the day when I can say, "It couldn't get any better than this..."

I have a lot of years to go (or so I hope) in my life and I know I might say this many times...

But today, despite a sudden storm in my day,

Life is fine... because of Laking National Points...so I got my new feel-good Archie for only 30 Pesos since I still have 90.00 in my e-purse.

Hurrah! :p

My little joy in the midst of the dark shadow looming ;)

time

And because it seems that the worlds and fates of the heavenly Lord are against me... then I'm staying. Again.

Maybe it IS not my time...

When will it be?

This is the 2nd time I've said I'm staying in the past 2 years I think.

Wow.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

on always wanting more

It's funny that in the process of waiting, I realize a lot of things. My mind seems to be taking a lot of time for reflection lately. As I wait for certain manifestations to come out, I realize that I am human in such a way that I am never satisfied.

In a way it's actually good to strive, to hope, to want something to happen. It's just funny that after one step, you'd like to go a step further. I may not say the same thing about maybe studying until im 80 years old or 90, or a 100, if I'm blessed that long... but, it's just that I realized that as we go on, we find ourselves adjusting to want more.

For example, if I had a few thousand pesos more, with the knowledge that there are starving people out there, I might still spend the extra few thousand pesos to buy a nice outfit, or a nice pair of shades for example. I just find it worth smiling about that it's as simple as having more.

We are never satisfied. Sure, we are ok about where we are, but hey who doesn't want more? Less is always bad. More is kinda always good. Up is always the way to go...

Right now, I moved a step up. Thanking the Forces that have helped me get through. And I find myself wanting to get to the 'end' goal. Getting there, getting it... but somehow I know now...it might be when I get there, I'd do this, and that...to get up, get more... get...

I am thankful for a God that has been grounding me. That despite my want for more, I know He has planned everything perfectly for me.

Wanting more may not necessarily be a bad thing. But its worth pondering about...

Randomly, a verse on one of my cellphone holders here in the office says..

"For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord. "plans to prosper you... Plans to give you a hope and a future." -- Jeremiah 29:11

I hope that what I am craving for, the more that I want, is the plan that God wants to use to prosper me, to give me a future...

I still wait.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

On Waiting, Again...

I think I've written about this before. But really, today, as I sit on my seat typing words away, I realize that waiting isn't one of my greatest strengths. Sure, I can wait. But you have to be such a strong strong force to be able to let me sit still.

I check my email every hour. It's a day past the deadline, I wish for at least a response. Positive or Negative...right now, it really doesn't matter. It was just like last Christmas, I just have to KNOW, so that I will have a plan maybe?

Who doesn't want to hope for the positive?

Plans, not really on top of that game though and I do take refuge in what Dennis the Menace has said, "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans."

And I did, and maybe now, at least, God is laughing a bit, at me...at my foolishness, at my childishness, at my impatience...

I wish to wait, and I am praying for the ability to wait, and to learn the virtue of patience.

I've improved and gone a long way since the last few years in terms of waiting, and today, I realize, I need more work.

So, I continue...

to wait.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Choir Practice

It took me around 2 choir sessions to realize what we were really singing about...

"The Greatest of These" was the title... and whenever I get to this part, I get all misty - eyed..

and it goes like this...

"it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres..."

1 Corinthians 13

Love
1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

You Can't Stop the Beat

i cant believe how much ive been blogging these days... i can't believe whats been happening either...but overall, i am thankful for God's grace and help in my life. I just have to remember that whatever breaks I have, it's from Him, and I have to be thankful.

So some thoughts I just have to let out now...

  • Thank You for the open doors
  • The sight of you might just be the perfect end to my day
  • I am still keeping a little bit of my hopes up for that AIESEC thing... just a few more days to go
  • In those moments (like 10 seconds) when I actually love this job of mine, something comes up and voila, I don't love it so much anymore... Oh, the calling is great. hahaha
  • Listening to Hairspray now.
  • I need to finish updating E-HR
  • For once in my life, I'd like to have a plan for the next 2 years...
And the world doesn't stop turning.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Lean On Me

*I spent half the day looking for the mp3 of this song... still unsuccessful. Miss this song... chapel hour..high school. ;)*


When no one cared about me, if I should live or die
And no one bothered asking why I’d go alone and cry,
When burden got so heavy that I could not face the day,
Then I’d feel his arms around me and I’d hear him gently say:

Lean on me when you have no strength to stand.
When you feel you’re going under, hold tighter to my hand.
Lean on me when your heart begins to bleed.
When you’ve come to the place that I’m all you have, then you’ll find I’m all you need.

When the road ahead is rugged and the path is getting steep,
I feel that I can’t make it, and my heart begins to weep.
Then I turn to see who’s coming to join me in the way
And I can see that it’s my savior, and I hear him gently say:

Lean on me when you have no strength to stand.
When you feel you’re going under, hold tighter to my hand.
Lean on me when your heart begins to bleed.
When you’ve come to the place that I’m all you have, then you’ll find I’m all you need.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

What I Miss...

I guess that's what I miss...

I had lunch with the younger generation of AIESEC-Ateneo today...

And somehow, I felt so proud of them. I know there were times (or a lot of times) during my stay with AIESEC that I didn't contribute, but I've always loved the organization and thank the people I worked with there for their contribution in my life.

Today, I saw 5 people who had a bright future ahead of them. 5 people who were so excited to work for the ultimate project of Exchange. I guess it is interesting to note that at that time, even if I had thought of doing exchange as just work, I never realized until now what we were doing and what we were giving to other people.

An experience, a chance, a choice to do something new.

Taking a step back and looking at it 2 years after, it feels different. I still feel attached to the organization. The work they do seem to be so special, so big, so profound for their level. But they are doing it, and doing it well. It makes me smile to think that I came from there too.

From my point of view, I know that I didn't do so much and I owe a lot to Care, because of her focus and hard work. But it makes me smile that I used to take part in that. And that somehow, it's what I miss. Having a 'team' or working with a group where you can just sit, think, discuss, banter with each other. They eventually end up as good friends as I believe I ended up with Care, Javi, Drew, Roi, and some more...

I miss having to think of something, having that power to execute and having the power to know that you are capable of creating something that big that will affect someone one way or the other... and eventually, it will affect the world.

I miss the times. I miss the memories...

I actually miss AIESEC. :)

Awww. cheesy post...

Congratulations to the AIESEC Ateneo team I met this morning. You're special. Your presence reminded me that I can do something that can change the world.

Thank you.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Groundbreakting Thinker (GT)

Groundbreaking Thinker (GT)

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Groundbreaking ThinkerGroundbreaking Thinkers are charming, enthusiastic persons. They really bubble over with energy and like to take centre stage. They love variety both professionally and privately. Groundbreaking Thinkers tackle changes consistently with their optimism and firm belief in their own abilities; they are always on the look-out for improvement possibilities. Their excellent communication skills are of great advantage to them here. They approach the world with curiosity and openness and master new situations with a great deal of talent for improvising and with resourcefulness. Their spare time is taken up with a large number of hobbies; most Groundbreaking Thinkers like to travel in order to gather as many different impressions as possible. This personality type is unbeatable at discovering new possibilities.

In their work, Groundbreaking Thinkers highly rate challenges and diversified tasks. They cannot stand routine and too detailed work. They love to astound others with bold ideas for an original, new project and then leave it up to the others to implement them. Hierarchies, rules and regulations arouse their opposition and they love outsmarting the system. It is vital to them that they enjoy their work; if this is the case, they quickly become pure workaholics. Their creativity best takes effect when they work independently; but they are very good at motivating others and infecting them with their optimistic nature. Conceptual or advisory activities appeal especially to Groundbreaking Thinkers. It can happen that some people feel somewhat duped by their flexible, spontaneous nature.

Their sociability and enterprise ensure that Groundbreaking Thinkers always have a large circle of friends and acquaintances in which activity plays an important role. As they are mostly in a good mood, they are popular and very welcome guests. Grumbling and peevishness are unknown to them. However, they do tend to be a little erratic and unstable when it comes to obligations and this makes them appear to be unreliable to some. Groundbreaking Thinkers are very critical and demanding when it comes to picking a partner because they look for the ideal relationship and have a very concrete picture of this ideal relationship. Mutual aims in life are very important to them. They do not like compromising and would rather remain alone. For the partner, it is often a challenge to have a long-term relationship with a Groundbreaking Thinker. Groundbreaking Thinkers need a lot of space and diversity or otherwise they become bored and feel cramped. Types who are rather more traditionalistic often have problems with the willingness of Groundbreaking Thinkers to take risks and their often crazy, spontaneous actions. However, if one can summon up sufficient flexibility and tolerance for them, one will never be bored in their presence and will always have a loyal and faithful partner.

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Tuesday, July 01, 2008

interesting

And God works in mysterious ways...
Keeping faith...
Seems He's trying to hone me for something.
But what?

West Side Story Tickets for Sale!


Hi Everyone!

Tickets to West Side Story's Opening Night is for Sale.

September 5, 2008
8 PM
Meralco Theater


A part of the proceeds of this show will be donated to Kythe Inc.
An organization that supports children with cancer in the Philippines.
You can learn more about Kythe at http://www.kythe.org/index.html

Ticket Prices:

500 - balcony sides
700 - balcony center
1000 - orchestra / loge side
1200 - orchestra / loge center

Leave a message here if you're interested

Or contact Minnie:
0917-8676332
minnie.fong@gmail.com




happy birthday kuya!

to my one and only brother,


HaPpY 31st birthday!
Wishing you the best! :D