Sometimes I wish there was a day that I can just say...
I don't believe it...Oh, god, do you believe it?
'I don't believe it either. '
Oh God, Oh God, is it true?
Are you sure?
I don't believe it, I don't believe it...
*Smile*
Then we would just break up in laughter
The moment would have passed...
But it was there.
It happened. It's done.
It's over, whatever it was.
Do you believe it?
Oh God...
I don't believe it.
But it's there.
It's done.
And we can just *smile*
In peace.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Amazing
It's both amazing and weird that everytime I feel like giving up, I come across this verse (you can see it in the verse of the day part of this blog ;) )
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. - Psalm 27:14
Ok, Lord, I get it.
Thanks.
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. - Psalm 27:14
Ok, Lord, I get it.
Thanks.
Another one of those days
It's really just one of those days, you know... One of those that make you feel that the whole world is crashing down on you, and the next minute, you feel thankful in a way, that you are just alive? I don't know if you've already had one of these days, maybe, maybe...
My mind can't focus. It's not so new. I'm not really well known for my focusing abilities anyway. I'm a multi-tasker and I can do more with a lot of things to do than only having one. I like having a choice of which task to accomplish first, and move on to something else, and then just finish everything on time. It gives a bigger, fuller sense of accomplishment, I guess. I'm crazy that way, maybe.
I woke up this morning with jumbled thoughts in my head. I had 3 or was that 4 main prayers that I whispered out to the Lord...All of them I thought were too futile, too shallow for me to even worry about. Surely, my God is bigger than all of those problems. But, I AM worried. And I can't kick that feeling out.
Came to work at around 9:30 in the morning (my usual, lately), a bit late, but that's fine, I didn't miss a lot of things. 13 new emails, not so bad. Everything's doable. I should be happy, but I'm not. All the way to work, a line was stuck in my head... thus the YM Status "usap nga tayo.." Pero anong pag-uusapan natin? Hindi ko nga maayos yung mga iniisip ko?
Will that time ever come? When I can just approach and say, "let's talk..." I've done this a lot of times before, why not now? Teka, teka, sino nga ba kasi kakausapin ko? Marami eh. All of my dilemmas involve talking and discussing seriously, and I just can't seem to put my foot or should that be mouth (?), through...
Hindi lang talaga. Oddest thing about this is that despite everything, despite the confusion, there's a promise that God is greater that all of this. I will be fine, and that a little added patience wouldn't hurt. that HE is taking care of things... I don't know. I am aware that I have petty stuff that worry me... but I'm still worried.
Sigh.
Just one of those days.
My mind can't focus. It's not so new. I'm not really well known for my focusing abilities anyway. I'm a multi-tasker and I can do more with a lot of things to do than only having one. I like having a choice of which task to accomplish first, and move on to something else, and then just finish everything on time. It gives a bigger, fuller sense of accomplishment, I guess. I'm crazy that way, maybe.
I woke up this morning with jumbled thoughts in my head. I had 3 or was that 4 main prayers that I whispered out to the Lord...All of them I thought were too futile, too shallow for me to even worry about. Surely, my God is bigger than all of those problems. But, I AM worried. And I can't kick that feeling out.
Came to work at around 9:30 in the morning (my usual, lately), a bit late, but that's fine, I didn't miss a lot of things. 13 new emails, not so bad. Everything's doable. I should be happy, but I'm not. All the way to work, a line was stuck in my head... thus the YM Status "usap nga tayo.." Pero anong pag-uusapan natin? Hindi ko nga maayos yung mga iniisip ko?
Will that time ever come? When I can just approach and say, "let's talk..." I've done this a lot of times before, why not now? Teka, teka, sino nga ba kasi kakausapin ko? Marami eh. All of my dilemmas involve talking and discussing seriously, and I just can't seem to put my foot or should that be mouth (?), through...
Hindi lang talaga. Oddest thing about this is that despite everything, despite the confusion, there's a promise that God is greater that all of this. I will be fine, and that a little added patience wouldn't hurt. that HE is taking care of things... I don't know. I am aware that I have petty stuff that worry me... but I'm still worried.
Sigh.
Just one of those days.
Monday, October 08, 2007
Blog Something
"Blog something" - Chris told me, because I was complaining that I wasn't feeling so well...
I guess.
I guess I could blog about my less than one-year old laptop doing a blue screen on me last night. Argh. Sure hope it's not dead for good. I mean, it's good in a way, since at least it's still under warranty. And I have that feeling that it's still going to be fixed and it'll be safe soon.
Sigh. It's so hard for me not to have a working computer at home and I happen to looooveee my lappie. I guess that's the effect if you buy something for yourself. Stuff, toys, gadgets...materialistic ko ata ngayon. :p
Still, nothing to blog about. Bah. later.
Sadness that my laptop's dead (for now) I hope to have it alive again very very soon.... for now, it's continue to leech from the company's net and resources. hahaha to do stuff..like this. haha
I guess.
I guess I could blog about my less than one-year old laptop doing a blue screen on me last night. Argh. Sure hope it's not dead for good. I mean, it's good in a way, since at least it's still under warranty. And I have that feeling that it's still going to be fixed and it'll be safe soon.
Sigh. It's so hard for me not to have a working computer at home and I happen to looooveee my lappie. I guess that's the effect if you buy something for yourself. Stuff, toys, gadgets...materialistic ko ata ngayon. :p
Still, nothing to blog about. Bah. later.
Sadness that my laptop's dead (for now) I hope to have it alive again very very soon.... for now, it's continue to leech from the company's net and resources. hahaha to do stuff..like this. haha
Monday, October 01, 2007
Missing Baking
It's one of those light Mondays. You know you've got work to do, but no pressure. Offices are closed in 2 of my 3 countries. I feel good. There are stuff to attend to, but I can do that in a few minutes.
I can't stop thinking of baking some chocolate chip cookies... I might do just that later tonight. Or maybe some Peanut Butter ones... hmmm. These are going to get me fat. haha But, I just can't keep the picture of the cookies off my mind. So, I just might, I just might.
I miss baking. It always gives me that satisfaction, smelling the freshly baked stuff you just made with your own hands. Hot, gooey, not so small, not so large...perf..ect.
Sigh.
I can't stop thinking of baking some chocolate chip cookies... I might do just that later tonight. Or maybe some Peanut Butter ones... hmmm. These are going to get me fat. haha But, I just can't keep the picture of the cookies off my mind. So, I just might, I just might.
I miss baking. It always gives me that satisfaction, smelling the freshly baked stuff you just made with your own hands. Hot, gooey, not so small, not so large...perf..ect.
Sigh.
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