我傻傻方你的照片在我電腦裏面。。。
傻傻的。。。

thoughts of gratitude...

Dear .................,

Never did it cross my mind that the words "I think you need a good cry..." in just an ordinary text message would somehow bring me back to my feet and made me so touched that all the good emotions in my heart overflowed..

Yeah. A little bit overboard for a discription. But really. All I can say is a simple "Thank You..." but in case you are able to read this, you just have to know that you actually restored my faith that life would turn out to be ok, and that I life goes on.

I did cry the next day, you know... Yeah, I think I told you that... And it made me feel all the more better. I cried to my dad... knowing you probably would have the shock of your life if I cried to you. But nonetheless, it was good, sane advise and thank you for that...

Basta lang.

I'm touched.

Thank you with all the gratitude in my heart.

No words can compensate for it.

I hope one day, you would allow me to repay the 'favor'

:)

parang awa mo na

wag mo na akong iyakan...
wag mo na akong sigawan...

di ko naman kasi kasalanan.
ikaw rin naman pumasok sa sarili mo sa gulo
nagalit ka.
di mo matanggap.

wag mo sakin ilabas.
napapagod na rin ako.

tama na.
parang awa mo na.

thank you

i just want to thank that person who was ever so supportive (and also logical) last saturday. what you did won't be forgotten. :)

"做人的道理。。。"

How in the world do I translate this to English? Something like, "How to be a person"...
Mother complains that the relatives don't have this rule in their lives, that they don't know how to be a person. Is it simply because they didn't listen (or rather follow) to her requests (a.k.a orders) or simply because she felt very betrayed?

She didn't show up at her own son's wedding. Now, is that how to be a person? Personally, I do understand her principles and her stand and her rights and all of that. She is hurt, she has given so much for this son. A little payback wouldn't hurt. There was payback... problem is payback wasn't what she wanted.

And trying to get everyone to her side became a goal more than anything. It's enough that she has proven her point but why drag other people with her? Validation maybe? Or what?

I grew up in a very demanding environment. A lot of people thought it was martial law in our home. All I can say? "Semi." I can say I grew up in a very different environment, that is for sure... My mother playing a very big role in my life ever since. My father passed away when I was quite young, 12.. so in the formative years of my life, it was my mom, always my mom. I have seen her hurt, seen her happy and all the others... but likewise, I have seen my siblings hurt, seen them happy...

I try to put myself in the middle... Taking a stand especially if they conflict isn't the easiest thing to do. One is your mother, the others, your siblings. You get me. I guess this is why I easily get frustrated in family fights... I am still idealist this way. I want everything peaceful. I want everything to be in harmony.

Dream on.

I just wish everything will turn out ok, eventually...

So tired.

8-15 Lunar Calendar
Should be a day of gathering
Right.

Wait for the Lord,
Be strong and let your heart take courage,
Yes, wait for the Lord.
Psalm 27:14

I waited patiently for the Lord;
And he inclined to me and heard my cry.
Psalm 40:1

invisible tears down my cheeks...