She Who Talks to Our Dogs

i think we're raising a potential criminal.

some of you may know that our maid's daughter has been living with us for years. We've treated her as one of the family and before, we used to take turns in tutoring her.
Today was weird though.
I was lying in bed after a day of work and heard a kid talking. I thought our neighbor had one over, never really realized that it was OUR kid.
So anyway, my mom comes in from the balcony and tells me it was her.

So, curious that I am, I go out and perch on the balcony ledge... And watched her do her monologue with our 7 dogs.

With a long bamboo stick, she goes,

"Ikaw Moonstar, Lucky, wag kayong tatayo,
Sandara, Moonstar, Kulot, Hoki, Lucky, Mega, Super,
Wag kayong maingay. Wag kayong tatahol,
*Pak* (bamboo hits a cage)
(ironically hindi tumahol yung mga aso, seemed they were amused)
Kung tumayo pa kayo isang beses *Pak*
Bakit ang ingay ingay niyo?
Ha? Sandara, Moonstar, wag kayong tatawa!....*pak!*..."

I have an odd feeling that she learned this from her teachers in school.
Talked to her mom only to find out that her previous teachers have said some stuff about her behavior.

People have asked if she had kids to play with at home, and well, even for the lack of it, it was kinda odd...She shouldn't do that.

I take it as a time of wanting to be in power
Uh Oh.

But take it out on my poor poor doggies? Can't be. Anyway, side thought. All the dogs were silently watching her with amusement.... tsk.. you go figure

My mom called her for a chat, and she answers quite well, actually.

I find it odd though...

Interesting case study...

:p

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:(

i can't help but think that I'm doing a bad job.
botching things up. not being to do everything well.
it's very uncharacteristic of me...
a low point, a low season maybe?
i have totally no idea. but whatever i am feeling is no excuse
work is not like that, isn't it?
if you don't perform, you're out of here.
go find someone else that can do a better job
i am honestly stressed out and have no idea what i can do
what i should do and what i am doing.
i am very very tired.
and i think i want to give up..
help?

Tired. and You're not helping.

Today...07.26.2007...

i can never understand how moods can actually become very contagious. i've spent the whole day feeling uneasy and edgy because my boss seems to be quite unhappy. it's odd actually when there's the feeling that the person is unhappy because of what you did.

But what did I do?

Some months ago, I remembered asking directly if she was angry at me...

And I got a laugh, turned out she was just stressed..

It's been a while really, I should be getting used to it... But how come, not?

Anyway, some thoughts for today...

1) Chocolait/Chuckie is happiness. Yum :)
2) When ranting needs to be done, Jim is good company (Thanks jim jim)
3) My IA siblings are happy company. Through thick or thin pareho kami ng mga feeling. LoL. - Hello to Vic, Chris and Aiza :) More power to us. hahaha
4) I am at that point where I just want to curl up and finish Harry Potter! :D (Karen, mauunahan talaga kita)
5) This pictures says more than I can type :)

Makes you calm, doesn't it? :) Thanks Les for sharing this over multiply. :D

Today....07.26.2007
Loads of deadlines...
But because you can't seem to lift your spirits,
You're still lagging behind...

I love it when a smile's contagious..
But frowns and negative energy?
Sigh...

shoo

i don't know.

it seems that if you approach me today and ask me...

how are you?

my sole answer would be,

I'm not OK, go away.

-la-di-da-

i chose breaking free as the first song of the day. needed something light. something i wouldn't mind listening to on a friday morning. i came to the office a lil bit earlier today - hitched a ride with mom who was going to makati.

it feels just like any friday, i don't want to work (don't i always?) and it seems that God is on my side, leaving me with only 39 emails to deal with on the first round. not a bad way to end the week.

i haven't really started on them yet, but i know i can finish them in a little while. i was talking to nats over the phone a while ago, discussing how we're going to go about later on 'coz we're going for dinner later over at omakase. spicy tuna salad. yum, can't wait.

realized some stuff while talking to her a while ago... "no matter what your job is, (unless it's field work), it does entail sitting in front of a screen (whether desktop or laptop) and emailing all day long. so, the people who keep on saying this job or that job is secretarial, dude, every job is secretarial, every job is administrative, whether you like it or not.

everyone has just got to make a living.

i've been doing some thinking lately. i've come with some conclusions and more questions for myself and other people. but then, something i again realized is that no matter how much i try to deny it, i do live in the shadows of what was taught and ingrained in me when i was young. this is bad and that is good, this is tolerable, and that is not...

there are just some things that you cannot change.
there are just some things that you have to live with.

i thought the other day that i was trying to compare myself too much to other people and that is way too wrong. i am myself and i am good at the things that i am blessed with. i should be happy and move on.

get over it.

some people have it, some don't. but that doesn't mean i don't have anything.

i have something.

anyway, moving on, i received 2 parallel news yesterday regarding the promotion of 2 friends in their respective positions.

congratulations dustin and keith. :)

can't think of anything else.

later!