ah...

As I contemplate on what editing to do to get the papers right, Im starting to think whether all of this makes sense or not. I'm sure to my mom, it does... I have in my hard drive the papers that will formally separate my mother and my brother... Ang labo, why does it have to be this way?

But, I guess that's already a long accepted fact. Though my mom may deny it, I think I've been spending more time with her than usual - isama mo na na pareho kami ng kwarto at lahat lahat...and well, I really don't know what to feel. To some, it would seem great, right? So, how come to me, it's really becoming a task. Ewan ko ba, nakakapagod lang...or siguro to put it in a much simpler manner, nakakapagod lang lahat...

Everyday, I hear my mom rant the same things over and over again. Brainwashing maybe.Hay.

Iniisip ko lang kasi, palagi niyang sinasabi na she wants to just get my brother out of her life. Wala daw siyang anak na lalaki. Namatay na daw and so on...Pero, hindi ba, kahit ang patay na, hindi naman natin nalilimutan? Saan kaya siya mag-uumpisa? Sa pagbura ng number ng kuya ko sa cellphone niya? O sa pagsunog ng lahat ng cards o regalo na nabigay sa kanya noon? Kahit naman kasi anong mangyari, hindi naman niya malilimutan, ever... 27 years and running din... Bakit pa kasi ganito? I guess, maybe, one thing she should do is let go... not forget.

Haha, daling sabihin. But nothing's impossible.

boo.

The girl beside me smells strongly of the old Impulse cologne. Even through my cold, i could smell her. The scent of a cologne from the past brings back memories of simple days that are never to come back.

Cut the crap, you may say. yeah, Im about to stop in a little while anyway. Life gets more complicated as the days pass by... shet, masamang maging feeling old. now, i know why peter pan wants to be a kid forever..d rin nman pwede...hay..the temptation of never never land..

School is gonna be tough until the end of finals week but i have to be grateful coz the projects are the things that're gonna keep me going till the week of October 18. After that, I wanna go to baguio alone and hibernate for the rest of my sem break. hehhe

Hay, wala lang. Im beginning to hate this layout so expect something else soon. =) I wonder how everybody is..

Im harassed. but well, such is life. Might as well live it.

light

It's ironic how the light that brightened your day can dim and die out as well...

i was thinking yesterday...

if i kissed that horsey, would it be relly worth ten points??! eewwww hahahah

record breaker

Nabreak ko ang puyatan record ko kagabi! Grabe. Before, my latest time to give up on a project was around 4 AM! Kanina it was 5 AM! Wheeee... The weird thing is, while I was doing what i was doing, i wasn't even tired. But when i got to bed, di na ko nakabangon! My mom and brother had to wake me up around thrice before i could get out of bed! Hehehehe. Wala lang. Hmmm, im craving for pancakes now... I wonder if I should go to McDonald's to get some.. Yum... hay. pero nagtitipid ako. I just want something sweet in my mouth actually.Hmmm, chocolate perhaps. :)

1st day of experiments namin, sana maging maayos lahat! Wheee... Oh well, later!

Bagong Degree Koh. hehe

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ano ba to gising na gising ako. there's a stupid fly flying about the office where i am! whoever heard of flies at 2:30 in the morning!?!??

i swear, blogs? ARE AMAZING. they communicate so many things. it can be used to kill people, rejuvinate people, uhhhh make people hungry (blogs on recipes! hehe), talk to people, talk to animals, stalk people, miss people, basta they're amazing! Kakatakot lang mamaya, some people use it to track people! OH NOOOO!!! hay sa bawat good thing, may bad! The world is FAIR! hahaha

Back to Pagmemeron! Go Father Ferriols! Mabuhay. Hehehe

la lang

wala, wala lang ganang gumalaw. pagod na pagod na siguro. galing galin 1:18 na gising na gising pa ako. mukhang no sleep kami ng group tonight! Saya. pero weird kasi fulfilling di matulog ngayon. haha

i brought Beer home tonight! (ano nanaman iniisip niyo?)

Yup, yung stuffed dog ni Katie. Hahaha he's so cute. Kakatuwa.. wala lang, i feel like a kid lately. SHet, early second childhood ata toh.

Share lang, gumawa ako ng written draft ng philo paper ko for tomorrow. mga 3 years na ko di gumawa ng written draft. ang sayang accomplishment. sanan i get high on this one! :)

im spaced. marami dapat matype pero im going back to expe and philo first.

gnyt y'all

wala wala WALA nga

The clock's about to strike one, and I didnt' even notice. I guess that's just the way it goes when your hand's doing one thing, your eyes another and your mind still another. The value of multi-tasking indeed.

Honestly, I don't really feel up to this day. But then again, why shouldn't I be? In a few hours, the sun will shine (and the freakin rain will pour again, yes!), what's the point? Haha, while I'm typing this, I am contemplating whether or not I should post something about a part of me now, but well, my fingers are tired... and my brain isn't really that awake, so maybe next time...

I just finished printing about 200 pages for experimental psych readings. good luck to me and my groupmates.

Damn, tulog na nga lang toh.

Namimiss ko na si Hobbsieeeyyyyy...

Parang bata noh? Natutuwa sa isang fictional character na nakikita lamang sa isang comic book...Hindi naman kasi dati ganito, parang maliit na bata gustong-gusto magpapansin at mangulit. Shet, anak ng! nagiging KSP na koH? no way, this can't be..

Hindi naman siguro. minsan, mas gusto ko lang maging bata, feeling ko kasi hindi ko na-experience. maraming nagsasabi sa aking spoiled daw ako, pero bakit hanggang ngayon, hinahanap ko yung feeling na maluwag lang yung kapaligiran ko, na sana makapaglaro naman ako ng tama. pucha, ano bang tama? haha sa mga makakabasa nito, for your info, 1228 na ng umaga kaya medyo sablay na. gusto ko lang talaga magtype

malungkot ako ngayon. pag sinabi kong dahil ito sa malapit na pagubos ng printer ink ko NANAMAN, maniniwala pa ba kayo? malamang hindi na noh? hay nako. ewan ko ba.. gusto ko lang mapagisa..nung isang araw nga nagmumuni muni ako at naisip ko ang ilang bagay na sana nagagawa ko regularly...

1. watch a no brainer movie at home ALONE
2. stop thinking
3. go out with friends to eat
4. go watch a movie with friends (pwede nang hindi no brainer hehe)
5. write poems, stories, essays -- ala 4th year portfolio entries
6. magmuni-muni.. (ive had too much philo, as you can see)
7. speak, not talk, but, speak.
8. read my books (inaamag na haha)
9. write and send snail mail
10. cross-stitch! (3 years old na ata yung tinatahi ko. haha)
11. talk to ange.. (wow special mention hehe)

Tapos meron din things that i want to learn... like ...

1. handling a gun (whee, childhood dream)
2. dive (mahal!)
3. photoshop! haha
4. edit videos
5. coding webpages and the like
6. interacting with special children
7. reading my mom's mind. hehehe wala lang..

i miss hobbeseyyyyy waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... pero diba, how can i miss something that was never there, in the first place?

nakakabobo. hahaha gnyt.

uhh..

tinatamad ako gumalaw ngayon. hahahha today was a really SLooowwwWWW day at school. Had a test for Cog Psych (hello cancellable exam!) and a quiz for Philo on meron.

gagawa muna ako paper. later.

have to think on what to type about my sexuality. wahahaha diyos ko ano ba namang topic toh!

I WANNA

I wanna be pretty again

WRONG!!!

I wanna FEEL pretty again. ..

Yeah, that's better...

Life sucks.

Terribly.

I wish it would rain.

grrowl!

I swear Javi can be very frustrating at times! Now, he tells me that there's another conference before NTS! Which will definitely screw up my plans with my dear friends to go to Baguio (planned freakin months ago) and will make me bankrupt!!! Grrr.. and he goes "Cha, I won't stress anymore how important this is to you, if you were to choose between NTS and NPM, go to NPM"

WHAT THEEE!?@?##?!?!

The point is that I've already committed to NTS and that's what I am willing to support. Takte, hindi naman madali ang pera noh! Sabi pa sakin ask my sister to support me or something. DUH. As if, ako nga wala nang pera, ate ko pa?! Eh, dami dami binabayaran non! Hay... Some people, siguro isip niya madali lang makakuha ng pera. Whatever.. Meron pang line na "if they're really your friends, they'd understand" Hell-0!!! If it was planned months ago versus something just texted to you uhhhh now, ano pipiliin ko noh! Shempre may buhay din ako apart from the org...inis talaga!! ggrrowwlL! Nadisorient tuloy ako kanina. Kapikon. Makes me think tuloy kung sha yun lang ang life... Im so bad! Inis tlaga..

Anway, enough of that...

Ayaw parin kumain ni Pete! Waaahhhh... Baka naninibago lang sa place or maybe he's overfed. AYun. Basta. Hay.

Line of the day: Ang meron ang meron... (ang wala ay wala...) kakabaliw talaga ang philo. bwiset.

Pre-invite ko na kayo lahat sa Kythe Concert! November 20, 2004, Saturday. Gasoline Alley, Robinson's Galleria. :) Hehehe

Shet tamad pa ko gumawa ng paper.

ho-hum

Sumikat na ang araw.
Bumubuhos parin ang ulan.
Ramdam ko ang simoy ng hangin.
Magiging tama rin ang lahat.
Sundan lamang ang pagpalit ng panahon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CATHY SEE!!!

See, I didn't forget!!! Hehehe. Salamat sa lunch. =p

nuthin, really.

Nothing better than a caramel sudae on a cold night.

Thanks to katie for the idea. hahahaha.

I can't believe it, part of me now, understands my mother... if you want to try, well, think of a project you spent time on, something you're sure that you're gonna get a good grade in then you fail, yeah, that's how it feels. But well, what's done is done.

I'm done.

I'm going back to theo.

REALLY!...click me

comment on recent quiz. hehe

kaya pala di lumabas sa mismong site yung pic. wahhaha anak ng tokwa! anime!!! wahahahahah minsan nyo lang makita yan!! :D

Which Season Am I? =p

You're an Autum. You're much more laid back then
most and you're very comfortable in new
situations. You rather let things go with the
flow than try to change them. You have a lot of
close friends who love you because you can help
them with their problems. You're a very patient
person and it take a lot to get you rattled.
You're deffinately a lover not a hater.


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Nung isang araw ko pa gusto mag-blog pero di naman magkatime na humarap sa computer since saturday morning. Well, I went with tiff to church that afternoon and got ourselves into a "bring it on" routine choreographed by some of the high school kids at church. It was pretty cute (considering you had the same move about 3 times in 24 counts and you had to learn it in 30 minutes! asteg) actually but well, dun ko talaga naramdaman yung age ko. hahahaha. Kuya Mark's directing the christmas cantata (yes, the controversial one!) this year and it's really nice to see him even if he's still grouchy. Hehehe

Tapos non, I went to YF then my sis picked me up and DRAGGED me to have coffee with neil and his friends. Turns out I recognized the other friend (named Fred) coz we went to camp together at Jubilee once. Really small world. I was really grouchy already and all I wanted was to go home coz I was tired from all the moving (after not moving since 3rd year cheering haha) so, i was so cranky (I've been cranky since last week but i was very cranky saturday night) and finally, i got to go home!!! The coffee really helped me in my sleep.

Yeah, I'm blabbing. =p

Sunday came, went to church, felt nice, felt bad, went to don ramon to pick up my cousins, wento home to eat lunch, watched Man on Fire on DVD while munching on Lapid's (takte cholesterol) tapos bitin yung ending buti nalang one of them knew what happened kaya sulit na rin. Then, went to Price Smart at Fort bought some stuff went to Magallanes to visit my mom's best friend, ate at Luk Yuen (eew), brought my cuzins home and and and went to Piy Margal to buy fish from uncle Miguel!!

Shucks, I haven't been there since my dad died! Almost about 7 years more or less. And well, we found out that Uncle Miguel doesnt live there anymore, his son manages the business now! So, I got 18 new fish (one died na kanina, nagsuicide) so 17 nalang. Mix of Tiger Barbs, Rainbow Shark and Albino Rainbow Shark. Wala lang toh kababawan lang. Then I came home, my sister got the computer, so I slept.

Didn't go to class today. But I went to school though. Naubos nanaman ata water supply ko sa katawan - langya. Hay, I swear, I think I'm overworked. Yada Yada. I'm so glad I saw my best friend today! Yey, I really missed her. She went to school with her boyfriend...I really loved seeing her. :) She's the best. It made me feel better. Pero now, nakakainis kasi sakit ng mata ko tapos masakit ulo ko and I have to study for the theo exam tomorrow. Well, good luck to me.

I wish it's all over now. Once and for all. Ang hirap i-explain. Basta ganon lang.

I almost forgot it's Cathy's birthday tomorrow - almost!! hehehe

Well, I'll try to read now. Bye.

Thanks for the time. And by the way, I learned na how to open and close my balisong. Yey. :D babaw. haaha

1-10 :)

GREAT.

Now that I know it's working again then I can post! Yey. Hahahah. Ang babaw talaga.

hmmm

1st: Congratulations TUGON for a job well done last night. (this is your official tambay speaking hehehe sabi rin ni nagfefeeling tugon- Kevin hehe )

2nd: Ginising ako ng nanay ko ng maaga!!! 8 AM! Waaahh I wanted to sleep till 10 kasi first saturday without class but she needed the driver's number so i woke up boo hoo

3rd: Ang dami ko pa kelangan gawin!

• Study for Cogpsych
• Study for Theo
• Study for Expe
• Research for Expe
• Read for Philo
• Basta mag-aral. Hehehe
• Dami pa ayusin for AIESEC
• SOM week na next week - ang daming ek ek ng SOM at the last minute nakakainsi

4th: Nakita ko sila jo, lou and fu kahapon..sobrang miss ko na sila - my PR familY! it's been a while. :)

5th: may bago akong balisong. heheh bigay ni kris. :) red sha. di pa ko marunong mag-open kasi nagwhiwhine ako kahapon. hehehe

6th: excited ako for the Kythe concert naman!! Jellaaaaaa, yoohoooo hehehe

7th: Guys, what do you think of what aromatherapy and music effects to your short-term memory?

8th: I might be putting up a site soon for our Cogpsych project, participate ha? Thank you thank you thank you!

9th: YF later --> talk on terrorism. CBCP Library 6 PM. Be there daw. Lang ya. salamat talaga sa chikka text kundi ang dami ko nanaman gastos sa kakatext ng prompt!

10th: Bye bye muna. Hehehe

hmm

lets see if this works now.. :) test. hehe

which care bear are you?

	Friend Bear You are everyone's ideal friend because you are sincere and genuinely kind. Sometimes you worry about your friends' problems so much, you forget about your own responsibilities, which can get you into trouble. For you, it's the little things that really count. You also happen to be the main driver of the Cloud Car. No speeding!
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

hmm

nagloloko blogspot. grrowl

hay

I saw my philo orals grade today. It definitely sucked. 2.25 :( I really wanna cry now. Nothing seems to be right - academically! Inis. Pero sarili ko lang naman talaga masisisi ko, hindi ba? Wala lang. Ang sama lang kasi talaga nung pakiramdam mo na kahit papaano naman pinaghirapan mo, pero wala.

I seem to have lost it. Patawa. What it?

Ayoko na talaga.

Wala na bang worthwhile ngayon sa buhay that i can look forward to? :(

-untitled-

its unfair to think of someone

when someone else is thinking of you.

Trying out the features. :)

click to see post :)

I am thankful for...

70! =(

We got 70 for our proposal defense. a D. a big fat D. and that's 20% of our grade. right. i told them not to worry about it coz if you compute it it'll be 14/20 pero honestly ako rin naman disheartened because of it. ang lungkot kasi our grades as a group weren't really that bad and it's not that we didnt prepare for it, its just that we had the wrong topic and maybe, maybe, we didnt think of it too well. hay... =( hindi naman kami pwede magmukmok ng matagal kasi tumatakbo yung oras ... back to the old drawing board... :( kami lowest sa class waaaaahhhhh

went to tugon after that, they were watching you got served, so nakinuod na rin ako. 2nd time i watched it. yun. in theo the group reported about prostitutes today. they got to interview a prostitute who loved her job. wala lang. ano na ba nangyayari sa mundo ngayon? hahah

wala lang.

Ipikit mo ang iyong mga mata
Baka sakali'y may makita
Mahiwaga, kakaiba...

ulan

Kailangang bumuhos ng ulan. Ngayon din.
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tao ako

Minsan nabanggit sakin ng isang friend ko, "cha, may puso ka na pala." Kala mo naman hindi ako tao diba? Cguro nga yun na ang perception sakin dati pa, gago ako, mataray, walang kwentang kausap, amo. Pero may mga tao rin namang tinotolerate ako. Hindi ko alam kung dahil lang wala silang magawa or dahil nagets na talaga nila yung nagets nung friend ko, na tao rin pala ako.

Hanggang ngayon marami nag-iisip na hindi pa ako nagbabago or rather, ganun parin ako, baliw, mataray, matapang, bungangera...may nadagdag pa nga, selfish daw ako kasi sarili ko lang ang pinapasaya ko...pero ano pa bang magagawa ko, hintayin ko nalang siguro maisip nila na tao rin nga pala ako.

Kahit noon, hanggang ngayon naman eh.

Ano nga ba ang tao?

...

I lock myself in only to find myself trying to break out.

still collecting my tots

Nagkwekwentuhan kami ng kapatid ko kanina habang pauwi. Napag-usapan namin ang mga first love. May isang bata kasi na nagkwento sa kin na sabi daw sa kanya ng tatay niya, 'anak, swerte ka na kapag naging first love ka ng isang lalaki' so tinanong ko ang kuya ko out of curiosity...Pero, ang sagot lang niya, hindi niya alam kung sino ang first love niya or parang sinagot niya sakin, lahat ata ng naging girl niya, first love niya. asteggg. haha wala lang. tapos, binato niya pabalik sa kin yung tanong, inisa-isa niya yung pangalan ng mga taong alam niyang 'na-link' sakin, ngumiti nalang ako. :)

Kanina sa simbahan yung message nung pastor tungkol sa "loving each other deeply" hindi lang naman ito nag-aapply sa mga mag-syota (ay magkasintahan pala) pero para daw sa lahat. Sabi niya there are two kinds of love that exist in this world..

1. worldly love - this i the love where you want to TAKE whatever the person you love owns.
2. bible's love - also termed sacrificial love, eto naman yung love kung saan you want to GIVE everything you have

Ibang klase rin. Parang ang dali dali kasing sabihin kung ano yung gusto nating matamo diba? Pero sobra naman talagang hirap gawin. Maraming tao diyan sinusubukan bigyan ng operational definition (too much expe psych) ang love, yung iba halos maubos na buong buhay nila hindi pa makuha-kuha...pero sadyang ganoon naman ata, hindi naman kasi dapat makuha lahat... parang philo lecture ata. hahaha ginagawa daw kase yun.

Special mention kay nats kasi kung amabot sha sa part na to, masakit na ang tiyan niya sa kakatawa. Pero basta yun...maraming issue tungkol sa love kasi ngayon sa simbahan namin. Magulo yung mga tao. Pumasok na kasi ang politika. Grabe, masaklap pa don, ang feeling mo, mali kayo...tipong mag-iisip ka, "teka, bakit ang dami nila, hindi kaya kami ang mali?" kaya nga siguro yun yung message kanina..Parang sabi nung pastor, subukan mo nalang love yung tao sa tabi mo kasi forever mo naman magiging brother or sister yun in Christ...meron kayong common factor yada yada yada and if you cant love each other daw it just means that there is sin amidst you... totoo nga...pero pano muna natin tatanggalin ang pulitika na bumabalot dito? Tagal ko nang inisip lilipat ako ng simbahan pero ano pang use dba? Kahit saan ka naman lumipat magiging ganon parin in the end. Lagi may intriga. Hay.

Pause muna.

Happy Birthday Abi Chen. :)

Ok, Change topic. Mamaya na ulit. Have to collect my thoughts. :D

naghahabol..

Cge lang habol lang ng habol. Parang aso na paikot-ikot sa kakahabol ng kanyang buntot. Pero sadyang hindi mo mahabol ang oras. Minsan nakakainis. Minsan hindi rin. Sadyang nakakabobo ang paghahabol.

wake up koL

nagising ako kanina sa isang matagal nang panaginip...

life's little lessons comes in well weirdly at the most unusual moments. I was taking my I/O exam a while ago and well, I woke up.

Malabo. Teka, explain ko.

I studied for the test but I had some careless mistakes which actually reminded me of math exams in high school..wala lang basta, narealize ko lang, its time that i pay attention again to details and stuff. marami na siguro akong nawala because i always just tried to get the gist of the story. hindi pala talaga effective yun minsan. the test a while ago gave me something to set my eyes on...a goal. yaks naman ang drama. pero well, matagal na rin akong walang goal sa academics kahit ilang beses ko pa sabihing ive been trying to pull my grade up. Ewan. cguro kasi nasanay nang maging slacker and crammer or something, sana lang maging tuloy tuloy na paggising na to.

i flopped my philo orals the other day, i cant even remember if i posted it already...i got a 2.5 for my paper and it really feels bad coz i try really hard to get the point of philo. hay... baka kailangan ng isa pang pampagising. Tuloy-tuloy na dapat to..sayang, nararamdaman ko yung momentum...imagine, nakayanan kong tapusin aralin lahat ng 9 chapters para sa test kanina (sh*t may careless mistakes parin) pero wala, i felt ODDLY motivated..

So, how'd you guys like the new layout? Well, hindi naman ako ganon kagaling - i downloaded it from blogskins and added some changes..i wanna try to make my own sometime soon though..(yeah right, as if may oras) wheee..taggie kayo ha! grabe narealize ko while i was editing this that i was really computer illiterate na pala.. hahaha.. i have to get lectures somewhere. my brain's getting rusty.

im supposed to be looking for scary pictures now for expe but i really dont have any energy to be scared anymore. so, let's leave that for tomrrow morning, what do you think?

Shucks, grabe, may mga daga parin takbo ng takbo dito sa office!!! san kaya galing tong mga to? nakakaawa pang patayin coz theyre so tiny... ala lang.

gnyt y'all

just passing through

I'm 427.25 richer! I got my lab breakage from last sem's chem laboratory and yipeee, now i have extra money! I'm so ultimately hapyy! Siomai. ang babaw non ah.

Actually, I'm just taking a break from my review for a 9-chapter midterm! Yey, congratulations to me! I finished reading my book already, now what's left are handouts that are as thick as a book. Goodness gracious! I want a vacation but I'm really kinda enjoying my sem now... minus the sucky grades of course! Argh.

Hay..sabog ko noh? feeling ko ang babaw na ng blog ko na to. hahahah well, who want it to be deep neway? basta yun cge. la lang. just passing through.

enjoy the pink lay-out (now u can figure out how stressed i am) [who say's u need standardized stress tests??!?] and well wala pang space for comments! still figuring that out. maybe i should get a taggie..

back to I/O!