waaaahhh

waaaaaaaaaaahhhh hindi na post yung pinost ko kahapon!!! grrr.. grrr.. grrr.. test computer kasi to eh! oh well later. gmorning people. i slept till 10 today. i wish i could sleep more para basta mas matagal. heheheeh yun. babay. :P

d gr8est sTorY eVr toLD

 
I was at Katie's when I heard this song.  And now, I'm quite attracted or even addicted to it.  Sabi ng mga friends ko last year pa raw to,  I don't really care. Hahaha I like it.  Wehehehe   So, share ko lang sa inyo. :)

The Greatest Story Ever Told
Oliver James

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could've prayed for
There you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad, I'm your man

And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day.
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you tonight?

I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine.
Its the way we touch that sends me
Its a way we'll always be
Your kiss, your pretty smile you know I'd die for
Oh baby, your all I need.

And if I lived a thousand years
You know, I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you
That day.
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you,
Just how much I really need you
Did I tell you that I love you tonight?

O, dba ang sweet?? hAHAHA wala lang. :) Have a good night people.

lalalalala

 
It's almost one but I still can't sleep.  I'm dead tired but I'm awake and my fingers can't stop typing over a keyboard that wants nothing but rest.  I came home at around ten in the evening today.  I had IO Psych today and well, I would have to say we did a great job in our report!  2 hours and the people were still awake...so, isn't that just great?  It doesn't really matter that much to me anyway.  I got a C+ in my first paper for that class though :( So far, my average for everything basically is a C or a C+.  I gotta get back into shape.. (sheesh, what shape) so there...Life's crap. hehehe

My brother told me I was bitter.  I'm not.  I think I'm just facing reality.  Hell, who wants to eat out on her birthday with people who can't stand each other's faces, right? :D cynical little creature, ain't I?

I had sundae a while ago - my bro got me hot fudge and a burger.  He also got me an aquarium and filter for my fish.  Do you want to name my fish?  My cousin gave it to me..It's a boy fish - flowerhorn.  It's one of those grouchy lil fish that's cheap when you buy it and expensive when it grows big.  I don't want to sell it, I just want to take care of it.  Help me name my new pet! =) Heheh parang tamagochi eh, noh?

I still can't sleep..I don't feel sleepy. Grrrrrr...

Hay.

nuthin

been a jittery day
been a freakin day
been a really unfruitful day
tomorrows a hectic one
the sona was stupid
ill post tomorrow
gnyt.

uhmmm.

Hoping the world would be a better place someday. 

ulan

 
dont you just love the rain?

lalo na yung ulan na may dalang malamig na hangin?

yung ulan na buhos na parang nararamdaman mo ang luha ni God?

yung rain na parang sinasabi sayo, hindi ka nagiisa, may kasama ka?

yung rain na kahit baha na sige parin..yung ok lang naman kahit basa ka na ulo hanggang paa..

yung ulan na cge lang ang buhos?

yung ulan na feeling mo is serving its purpose..

dont you just love the rain?

i do.

Personality Disorders of Mine. Hahaha

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

boxing

 
Sabi ng tito ko, dapat daw, magaling ako sa boxing.  Anlabo talaga.  Akala mo naman kailangan ko talaga sumapak ng tao.  E ang liit liit ko.

Sabi niya, magaling ka na daw mag-boxing kapag nakakasapak ka kahit na natatamaan ka ng kalaban mo...Pero ang gusto niyang matutunan ko?  Umilag.  Umiwas.  Kailangan ko raw matutong umiwas kasi dun lang daw talaga ako totoong magiging magaling.  Oo, pinariringgan niya ako.  Nandito kasi siya ngayon, ginawa siyang mediator ng nanay ko.  Malapit na kasi palayasin ang kuya ko sa bahay, ako naman daw pag di pang natutong umilag, baka ganon na rin.  Nakakasakit pa kasi sinabi pa talagang inaasahan ako diba?

Sino bang nagsabing asahan nila ako in the first place?  Yung ate ko, binigyan ako ng sermon kahapon.  Ok lang, naiintindihan ko naman punto niya.  Kaya nagpapasalamat naman ako.  Gusto ko lang sabihin sa kanya na well-aware naman ako sa mga sinasabi niya.  Struggle ko rin yon.  Ayaw ko lang talagang sabihin na sa kanila kasi ginugulo lang nila ang utak ko.  Oo, kapamilya ko sila pero hindi ba?  Buhay ko rin to?  Kuya ko naman sasabihing ako ang magiging "glue" ng pamilya ko... Saya talaga, sana pinangalanan nalang nila akong Elmer.  Ang nanay ko, inaasahang mabait ako, masunurin, hindi na magkakamali... Mas magaling daw kasi ako...Pucha, tao rin naman ako ah.  Kahon na kahon na ko.  Cornered na ko sa kanto ng maliit na black box ko.  Ni hindi pa nga ako makaisip out of it, selyado na.  No way out.

Naisip ko, mahilig kong suntukin mga guy friends ko.  Haha, babalik nanaman ako sa boxing.  Oras ko na ba umilag? Sinusubukan ko naman eh. Pero sadyang natatamaan parin.  At minsan, masarap matamaan, magkapasa...minsan naman nakakamatay rin.

 

spaced out lil girl

I find it hard to write these days. I have sudden inspiration and as quick as a lightning bolt, the idea goes away. :( Neway, Im in school now. Bored and wasting my six hour break. I want to wallow. Find me a place will you?

My grandma's in the hospital. she was admitted to Metro yesterday. The hospital had a new look. It was cleaner and had a lot more posts - parang to make sure ata that it wont collapse. Hehehe the new building will have 26 floors but it's still under construction. I guess itll earn money soon. One of the things that I saw there was a cat. I mean it was weird because the cat was in the nurse's station. Yuck! Talk about unsanitary!

My brain feels like it's floating on water (eek, not even cerebral fluid. !@#$$ how nerdy can i get) and well, its just there floating. hay

I just realized Im a meanie and even if i dont mean to be one, I am one. :( waaahhhh ive been to philo consultation today. My teacher said I was consistent. Lang ya.. Parang I should be proud of consistent 1.0s!!! oh well, hahabol hahabol. I should love socrates more noh? if not, i think i'd suffer for it. sayang i love philo pa naman.

wat else to say? nothing. I simply feel awful and I feel like a criminal. Someone get me out on bail please.

!@#$%^&*(!)!

Our org president is driving me MAD! I swear, the saying "stubborn as a mule" was probably created just for him. Argh. He frustrates the whole EB with his comments and he tells me, he can't stand it when I comment? Argh. I'm totally stressed these past few days and what the heck, he adds up to it! He makes me so maddddddd...

Maybe I should just resign.

Hay!

Stressful. Nasisira ang beauty ko epal. bwiset.

grr

pwede bang katayin pa si sokrateS??

di karapat dapat basahen hehehe

I wonder if I could completely change the templates of this things. Kakasawa na kasi. Hahaha If i can, Id get someone to design this just for me! Personalized. I suck so much in art that I cant do it myself. Needless to say that Im not good in working with html.

Im listening to launchcast right now. Contemporary Christian... Daming bagong songs, astig.

Ayun. Marami pa sana eh, kaso baka malock out na ko sa room. My mom's watching her videos again. ahahah Korean/Chinovelas are so predictable. I mean which chinovela never used the "wo dui ni hen shi wang" line? Zhen de hen shi wang. Yi qian bu jue de ni hui zhi yang kan wo. Hao shi wang, hao shi wang... Sabay iyak ng artista. wahahaha iba tlaga.

Cge, Nats, tawa ka na. Hehehe O ha, special mention pa momi_bwat! hehe

Wala akong magawa kya ko kayo binobore. sige lang. get bored, i dont mind. cge na nga dibale na. dami sumasabay sa utak ko ngayon, parang high way. Sana magkatotoo yung birthday wish ko, dba meow? :p

masochist.

missin the point, if there's one

I came home from a 9PM class today, submitted a crappy paper and almost flunked a quiz. Yeah, I'm supposed to be happy! Jumping with joy and telling other people of God's good news. Yeah, I should be jumping for joy because Im alive, because I have a roof over my head blah blah blah. Freak. Im talking bull and you know that.

Hay, today was one of the worse days of my life. Well, crazy day rather. I promised myself I won't answer the call or any other call, two days before the month came, I just did. Maybe it was just to get it over with, you know? The phone was ringing like crazy and I cant finish my paper so I just did. I knew I shouldnt have. I feel like I want to burst. Boom. hhaaha

Bakit kasi hindi natuto eh. Bakit kasi pare-pareho nalang ang mali over and over. San pa ba matatapos. Life goes in circles. Some professor told me it should go in spirals. Hahaha para may mapatunguhan naman daw. Tama siguro si Father Bob...

I dont know who's missing the point here. Is it me? Baka nga. I always used to work in twisted paths hindi ba?

yeah, maybe im missing the point.

Something tells me I have to learn now...that sometimes life isn't just the way you want it to be.

Gusto Ko...

Gusto ko pa matulog
Pero baka ma-late ako

Gusto ko pa maligo
Pero baka maubos ang tubig

Gusto ko pa kumain
Pero baka tumaba ako

Gusto ko pa tumambay
Pero kelangan ko pang mag-check ng attendance

Gusto ko pa ng chocolate shake
Pero kelangan ng pumasok sa Philo

Gusto ko pa magreview
Pero wala ng oras

Gusto ko pa palitan ang sagot ko
Pero wala na ring papel

Gusto ko pa maghintay at magseminar
Pero nandyan na ang sundo ko

Gusto ko pa manuod ng Cat in the Hat
Pero may makulit na nasa gate namen

Gusto ko pa magliwaliw at magpakasaya
Pero marami pang dapat ayusin

Gusto ko pa basahin yung susunod na Chapter sa Genesis
Pero hanggang five lang daw muna

Gusto ko matapos ang paper ko sa I/O
Pero inaantok na ako

Gusto ko pa magkwento
Pero wala namang makikinig

Gusto Gusto
Marami akong gusto
E ikaw?

nothing much, just what's happenin

I woke up this morning. Damn. Didn't really want to go to class. But I did. I was late for theo - again. My priest of a teacher told me I'd be late for my own funeral, he's so nice, isn't he? But well, I will try to go in early from now on. I just cant find the proper motivation to be in by 9 AM. It's like the middle hour between early and late and I don't understand why I cant wake up for it.

My requirements for school are piling up - papers here and there, long tests throughout the rest of this month and readings galore.I just finished printing my bible reading guide (with my faulty printer that does not print lines and word documents) for the next six months, i hope ill be able to cope with it. Anyways, as I was saying, my school work is piling up, and well, so is org work. This year, I plan to immerse myself in work and books...sounds quite familiar! Why, I'm turning into a regular nerd again! (ganyan tlaga ang buhay kapag...)

Wheee, I joined AJMA this year. I hope I would be able to contribute to it. Wow, I'm working for Pua now! Hahaha but honestly, I think it's a nice org and it has its great potentials. I retained AIESEC (of course) and Kythe. Oh, and I'm part of DOE now... Wow, now the psychos caring about the environment... I don't believe it either. haha

Now, why am I blogging?

Basically, hindi dahil wala akong magawa kasi MARAMI dapat gawin. I even have my planner out and a little post it note on what I should be doing tonight but well, Im NOT in the mood. Ill be in school early tomorrow anyway.

So, bakit nga ko nagbloblog?

1) trip ko

2) naiinis ako, ata. Saan? ewan ko

3) I just wanna talk and no one has to have his or her ear burnt when I blog dba? So, its safer here.

Nasan na ba ko?

Nasa Cubao. Corny. Anyway, Im facing a full week. I still cant figure out how to put in a picture properly. I still want my digicam. I have tons of work to do. I think im sad because no one cares for me, boo hoo. I think Im happy coz my high school teachers a while ago said i got slimmer. Yey!!! And well, I think I wanna laugh because John Chen got a SDR case a while ago because he told his teacher he wanted to hang her on a tree. I got quite a laugh. I had lomi for merienda and our driver eddie, got an earful from my brother. there's a giant cockroack roaming around the office now and I just want to screammmmm. I went to a quack doctor with my bro and my mom and he's kinda cute (they say a lot of his customers stay coz he's cute) but he's a quack. his clinic smells like a chinese medicine cabinet. so major turn off tapos natatawa lang ako. Yon.

I havent continued learning how to play the guitar yet. I cant even bear to look at it. But I promise one day, I will learn and I will fulfill my promise. I dont know what to write for my reflection paper for theo. I dont feel like sharing. I cant say im over my pain coz im not, but I just dont want to go back anymore. its driving me insane. I wish my prayers are heard. i know they are. Im going insane. Hahah I should have control. Its one of the first things I learned in life - control yourself and take control of others. Its wrong, its partly right. I still dont have speakers for the LCOS on Saturday. Argh.

This is just too much