supressing my anger

Wala lang.

Alam ko namang may mali ako pero naiinis ako kapag hindi muna iniintindi ng tao kung ano yung basic story behind it bago sila magsasalita. Nakakapikon. Lalo na yung people who don't face you and try to go around the situation by sending out an email explaining the situation. I hate people na di kayang harapin kung anong dapat. Here's the thing, I've been messing up some of my responsibilities because of internal problems - I try to explain everytime but parang palagi nalang lumalabas na excuses lahat ng binibigay ko. Ang nakakainis pa doon hindi naman talaga pinapakinggan yung dahilan na valid naman talaga...Ang isasagot lang sayo, "May magagawa pa ba ako?!?"

!$%^^*&())(_(@#

As if naman sila lang ang dapat atupagin. Honestly, ang inis ko naman hindi sa buong org kundi sa isang tao lang. Sheesh, think about it, if you're going to be a leader and you can't talk to your "underlings" in a manner na talagang harap-harapan, dapat in the first place wala sila doon. Kaya nga ata nagkakaroon ng communication problems sa mga companies ngayon eh, lahat kasi naka-memo na. Whatever. I swear, I didn't think mararamdaman ko ulit to. I mean, yeah, the memo was sent to me, (as well to the rest of the freakin community, how fun) but it really felt offensive. Tapos I can't really defend myself dahil mga hindi ko nga na-meet yung ibang things na dapat gawin...but the thing is, i was honest in explaining and it was all in vain. Hay, I wanna quit but what will they say naman dba? That I'm a bad sport or something? Kung sinabi kong ayaw ko lang talaga, and pressure, magegets ba nila? No, of course NOT. Freakin People. Sabi na nga malabo talaga yung mga ganong tao eh! :(

Shet, kumukulo talaga ang dugo ko. What temperature does it take for blood to really boil anyway?

Enough of that na nga (kahit pikon parin ako at sumasakit ulo ko sa pagkainis) Well, yesterday, hmmm, I went to church and it was Sunday School Talent Day so there was free food - fishball, nachos, juice, taho and pizza...Yum. I gained three pounds when I weighed yesterday morning but I still ate anyway, which is baddddd... I went to fit for my cousin's wedding and I realized I had to diet or else I'd look fat in the dress. And who wants to look like a piggie right???!?? Hehehe. Then we went to a pet store and I got some worms for Pete, my fish who's so messy and growing up fast... The worms in that pet store were cheaper than the ones that were sold at P.Tuazon so I got a bunch and fed the worms sayote - kinakain talaga nila, ibang klase! Buti pa ang uod marunong kumain ng gulay. Hehehe

Anyway, philo orals tomorrow sobrang kabado ako wala pa kasi akong binabasa. Sobrang nababadtrip parin ako. As in. That letter was LOW! Masakit na ulo ko, ang init init kasi sa labas.