today.

I went to visit the guidance office today... for the 2nd time this week. No, there really isn't a problem. I just went for my routine interview for school and stuff like that. The 1st time, I was late...

Anyway, here's my story for the day... I do hope I'll be able to deliver it well...

My counselor's name was Icy or so that was what I think she was called. She didn't really introduce herself to me formally... She just told me to sit and interpreted some of my tests. Being a psychology major, dodging questions was something we somehow perfected as a skill in our four years of study. But nonetheless, she told me things about my previous tests, my personality, how I adapt to people, how I work...

She said I trust people who are consistent, and reveal only a little of myself until I feel that a person is consistent enough to be there. She said I want so much to be in control but all the control can be bent at the feeling of security and again, consistency. She said I was only half extroverted and that I was a disorganized person...she said I would like work as long as there was variety... ALL TRUE... Why wouldn't they be when they're simply reflections of how I answered the questions in the battery of tests they gave me...

Sadly, despite the diverse nature of my persona, there remains the other part of it.. the dark side which no one seems to see. the side which i myself try to keep away from... I really don't have a point... or maybe i do, it's either i just don't want to say it or i just want you to find out...if you even care to do so...

Anyway, that visit's over, the interpretations done... i just hope maybe that in the same way that a big chunk of me was revealed to myself, i could reveal myself to others... my strengths as well as my deficiencies...

yeah, yeah, im not in a happy mood...u figured, huh?

thoughts right now:

I'm drowing
Save me.

I'm tired.
Cradle me.

I'm crying.
Console me.

I'm scared.
Comfort me.

I'm stoic.
Provoke me.

...all those and others as well..