Sometimes, I do want to be treated as a weakling. Someone who needs the help and support of someone. I was asking my brother just a while ago to help me fix the computer. He just said I was whining. True, I whined. Still, when will be helpable to anyone?

I exude the same aura as my mother, or any female in my family for that matter. Strong women. Almost every woman in my family in both sides are strong women. Their characters are unbelievable and when they start to battle, even the quietest one of them will have something to say. The women in my family would always have a say.

Sometimes, I wished I was weak. Or well, at least not thought of so much as someone who can take care of herself. At one point, it IS something I cannot erase out of my system. But it doesn't mean I don't want people to care or to help or to support me.

Just a while ago, I wanted to be a weakling, to be technologically incompetent and just let my brother fix the computer. But no, I was "whining," so I had to fix it myself. Strong girl, smart girl, whatever.

Right now, I just want to be weak. And rely. And somehow just be cared for.

It's tiring to take care of myself.

Really.

Today's just not one of those days you can compliment me on being strong.

NO.