a reflection on work (after 8 months)

i was at a call the other day with lily from lenovo and she was trying to discuss with me the barrage of chinese words she had typed up in 6 separate excel sheets for me. in reality, she IS the client and she IS doing me a favor by doing all of those. but the stuff was just SO overwhelming.

anyway, in the middle of the conversation, we were discussing about my assignees and how much they needed the 安全感，(the feeling of security), when they go through their relocation procedure from china to God knows where in the world. we laughed at the realization that after 8 months of doing the work, i somehow understand them and that i have gained their trust.

more and more people call me now just to ask or tell me stuff like, "who's going to pick me up at the airport?" or "can you tell the vendor i need to find a house somewhere in the upper floors, i am afraid of noise" things like that... day by day, i talk to these people and i think little by little they grow closer to me as the days go by.

i often wonder what it'll be like to meet them in person; the same way they sometimes wonder how i'll be in person. girl from the philippines who can somehow converse with them in their own language...tsk, the little detail amazes them so much that they all owe me meals.

but, i guess, little do they know that when i am in front of them, i am just any normal person and that i could be shy and i could be just as lost as they are trying to find a way to relocate smoothly, somewhere. all of us, i believe, are lost, or can be lost. but then, this is running off topic...

what would it be like, i wonder? to see them, to know that somehow you have mandated them to do some things that they didn't want to do or told them "NO," like their parents might have done while they were kids. It's such a weird weird feeling really, especially if you say the big N-O to the ones way way older than you are or the ones who hold a position to cut your head when you offend them.

i try my very best to keep myself in the middle and in an objective position but i find it quite hard really. my heart always goes to them, solutions are always thought of, and sometimes i believe i almost cross certain lines. might have to keep that in mind sometimes. :D so there, enough reflection for the day...

just to think it over again, i am happy that i am able to understand how they feel and think and be able to have them cross my life.

i sit and close my eyes, taking a whiff of the highly polluted cubao air, i shall go on, for now...