Another one of those days

It's really just one of those days, you know... One of those that make you feel that the whole world is crashing down on you, and the next minute, you feel thankful in a way, that you are just alive? I don't know if you've already had one of these days, maybe, maybe...

My mind can't focus. It's not so new. I'm not really well known for my focusing abilities anyway. I'm a multi-tasker and I can do more with a lot of things to do than only having one. I like having a choice of which task to accomplish first, and move on to something else, and then just finish everything on time. It gives a bigger, fuller sense of accomplishment, I guess. I'm crazy that way, maybe.

I woke up this morning with jumbled thoughts in my head. I had 3 or was that 4 main prayers that I whispered out to the Lord...All of them I thought were too futile, too shallow for me to even worry about. Surely, my God is bigger than all of those problems. But, I AM worried. And I can't kick that feeling out.

Came to work at around 9:30 in the morning (my usual, lately), a bit late, but that's fine, I didn't miss a lot of things. 13 new emails, not so bad. Everything's doable. I should be happy, but I'm not. All the way to work, a line was stuck in my head... thus the YM Status "usap nga tayo.." Pero anong pag-uusapan natin? Hindi ko nga maayos yung mga iniisip ko?

Will that time ever come? When I can just approach and say, "let's talk..." I've done this a lot of times before, why not now? Teka, teka, sino nga ba kasi kakausapin ko? Marami eh. All of my dilemmas involve talking and discussing seriously, and I just can't seem to put my foot or should that be mouth (?), through...

Hindi lang talaga. Oddest thing about this is that despite everything, despite the confusion, there's a promise that God is greater that all of this. I will be fine, and that a little added patience wouldn't hurt. that HE is taking care of things... I don't know. I am aware that I have petty stuff that worry me... but I'm still worried.

Sigh.

Just one of those days.