It's funny that in the process of waiting, I realize a lot of things. My mind seems to be taking a lot of time for reflection lately. As I wait for certain manifestations to come out, I realize that I am human in such a way that I am never satisfied.
In a way it's actually good to strive, to hope, to want something to happen. It's just funny that after one step, you'd like to go a step further. I may not say the same thing about maybe studying until im 80 years old or 90, or a 100, if I'm blessed that long... but, it's just that I realized that as we go on, we find ourselves adjusting to want more.
For example, if I had a few thousand pesos more, with the knowledge that there are starving people out there, I might still spend the extra few thousand pesos to buy a nice outfit, or a nice pair of shades for example. I just find it worth smiling about that it's as simple as having more.
We are never satisfied. Sure, we are ok about where we are, but hey who doesn't want more? Less is always bad. More is kinda always good. Up is always the way to go...
Right now, I moved a step up. Thanking the Forces that have helped me get through. And I find myself wanting to get to the 'end' goal. Getting there, getting it... but somehow I know now...it might be when I get there, I'd do this, and that...to get up, get more... get...
I am thankful for a God that has been grounding me. That despite my want for more, I know He has planned everything perfectly for me.
Wanting more may not necessarily be a bad thing. But its worth pondering about...
Randomly, a verse on one of my cellphone holders here in the office says..
"For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord. "plans to prosper you... Plans to give you a hope and a future." -- Jeremiah 29:11
I hope that what I am craving for, the more that I want, is the plan that God wants to use to prosper me, to give me a future...
I still wait.
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